today, i learn something new again. every single day, i learn and understand from people of different age group, different gender. see all sorts of different people in the world.

what is it that you want in your life? what's love? i was told that love is when both party comes together and understand what they want in their life, and from there gives in their everything to achieve that. no one's love life will be ever smooth sailing. there bound to be ups and downs everywhere.

its been almost 2 weeks and I've been thinking real lot. looking at things from a bigger picture and searching for hidden messages. i don't know if i'm thinking too much or my trip down to Christmas service really lightens me. but i seems to have found the hidden message. i know i might sound weird here or anyone who's reading this might think i'm just thinking too much and wishing for the impossible to happen.

but i have this very strong feelings inside me, so strong that i couldn't deny its existence in wanting to lead or tell me something in life that i would have never think of. everything was in a mess at first, but the moment when i cooled down and try to sort the puzzle pieces, it starts forming a nice picture out of it. i might be right and i might be wrong in my feelings.

i don't even know how long will the hidden message becomes un hidden to me and reveal its secret or its just all my side of story. but i really hope i'm right this time round in my feelings, the mutual feelings that we both share. because we ain't someone who gives up so easily, i believe. the f word comes into my mind, faith.


i miss you;
i love you in the past, the present and maybe in the future.